The end of an era

Dear Society:

I've found that I've always been torn between multiple realms.
On one hand I can be a very confrontational and direct with people. I have no problem articulating what I am feeling or conveying anything that is on my mind. However, in some situations I am very passive aggressive. I don't cause scene's and I don't articulate to the person what is bothering me. I expect that the person or people will pick up that my behavior has changed or my attitude has changed and inquire about it. As well I expect that these people will know me well enough to have an idea of when they may be doing something or venturing into territory that might cause issues. Unfortunately what I have learned is often times people either aren't paying attention or just are more concerned about themselves.
Therefore what I have concluded is chivalry in my world is dead. I will not be nice and pleasant to people. I will no longer turn the other cheek. I will no longer look for the best in someone and try to bring it out in them. I will not go out of my way to help and be of assistance to anyone. Why? Because if everyone else is self serving, and is living life just fine then dammit so can I! So next time you ask me for something or ask me to do something, stop and think, what is Leonard going to get out of this? Because that is the question I will be asking myself, and if the answer is nothing or very little in comparison to what is being asked of me, then the answer will be a resounding NO...and maybe even a HELL NO.
For far too long I've been nice and giving of myself to self serving individuals, and that will stop immediately.

Thank you and good night.


Yours truly,

introspective mind